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Salam to all ♥♥

betik once told me this, as we were reminiscing the good old days together in our sweet room.

betik : deaz, ko igt x dlu, ktorg tanye ko bile ko betol2 free eh?

what she meant was, when will i get my freedom. as in when will i can hang out with my friends in shopping malls, having sleepover, go on vacation with friends and such. since my parents would never give their permission to do those things when i was still in school. even till now T_T

me : errr, ade eh? x igt pn.

betik : nenek la ko ni. tu pn x igt.

she said my answer was, "Lepas nadia zailan kawen kot?" then we both laughed so hard till i cry i guess?

betik : lawak giler kot time tuh. muke ko innocent giler time ckp tuh.

me : ouh eh? kte ckp cmtuh eh? sumpah x igt. LOL

and later i think if they gonna ask me that sort of question again, i guess my answer would be just the same. for those who're not having the problem like i did, will never understand what did i feel. they kept saying, "ko da besa kot. da nak masok 20 da. xkn taleyh kot?" seeee, they will never understand. in fact maybe, you'll never understand. well, sometimes i asked the same questions also. why can't i do those things like my friends did? why ouh why. at this point, the one and only person who's facing the exactly same problem is nadia mahat. our parents are practically the same. maybe i'm the only daughter so my parents just being tooooooooooo over-protective towards me. its tiring sometimes. sigh

p/s : i've changed my b/g music to "Putus by Melda Ahmad". its a nice song. i'm currently not feeling physically and mentally well. i feel like crying. i'm gonna face the emotional breakdown again, perhaps. and i wanna go to fina's kenduri selamat tommorow but i'm going back to my kampung. can i not join my family? i wish i can. my parents would never ___________ *pls do fill in the blank* and i'm thinking to get myself offline for awhile. both PC and HANDPHONE. i don't feel like talking and texting. i'm just tired :(

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