Salam & 안영 to all ♥♥
last week i was super depressed. everything didn't go my way. worst, result's out. my world felt like coming to an end.
as i was sitting alone, folding some clothes, my late grandma crossed my mind. seriously i never really think much about her.
she's gone for almost 8 years now. she passed away during my UPSR week. frankly on that time, i couldn't believe that she's gone. forever. i even thought my mom was kidding when she told me about it.
she was in the hospital. she's just being diagnosed, having Bone cancer. the day after, she left us. without notice. she just left.
on her funeral, i didn't shed any tears. it just didn't come out.
up until that moment, in my mind i always think that she's somewhere far far away from us. not that she's now in whole different world with us. i don't know, it's not like i couldn't accept her death. it just . . . hard to think that she's no longer with us. with me.
she's been living with my family ever since i was three? so she's always there. those who's living in my childhood days should have known her. whenever i go, people will notice her as "Nenek Nadia" or "Nenek Naqib" she was pretty famous. thanks to me and my brother.
i don't know what has taken over me, i think the depression did. i cried. for the first in my life, i cried because of her. to be exact, i cried because i missed her. i missed her so much.
i missed those days when i watched every dramas on RTM with her. i missed those days when she taught me how to cook. i missed it when she practically the only who called me Ya~ i missed those days when she brought me to her relatives' houses. i missed to sit on her kain batik. i missed sleeping with her. i missed everything.
Dear nenek,
i missed you ALOT
i really do
Nadia
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