rantings~

Salam & 안영 to all ♥♥

have you ever feel unwanted?
YES

do you think it's cool for parents to have facebook?
it was. but now it's irritating.

why?
they keep checking on mine.

do you think your privacy is being invaded?

YES

why is that so?

EVERYTHING is not a secret anymore ever since. and the fact that they're telling the whole world about it. that is ABSURD!

do you like being compared?

NO!

you're being compared to whom?

my brother

how old is he?

he just reached 16 last month

is it hard being the first child?

VERY!

do your parents put a high expectation on you?

YES

how does it feel?

tiring?

between you and your brother, who do you think they love more?

it's pretty obvious~ my brother

why?

like i said~ it's pretty obvious

can you please explain?

the way they treat my brother and I are different.

are you complaining?

yes I am

do you not satisfy with this situation?

indeed

what will be your dad's choices?

- his car or YOU?

car

- his DSLR or YOU?

DSLR

don't you think he got a valid reason for that?

yeah, he loves his stuff more than me

if you're arguing with your brother over some things, what will your parents say to let you stop?

they'll ask me to tolerate with my brother as i'm older.

are you sick of that?

YES!

what will you mom do if : 

- she saw you're crying?

she'll say i'm a grown up. what should i cry over those things?! she's mocking me~ that suits better

- she saw your brother's crying?

she'll ask him what's up? and try to make him feel better.

what would your parents say every time they see your results?

why can't be like those who's achieve great results? they're gonna say it shouldn't be hard since they were people who scored.

do you feel sad every time you don't accomplish what they've wanted?

of course! but they won't believe me.

what do you wish them to say instead?

it's okay kakak, try harder next time ;)

do you think your parents understands you?

NEVER

how does it feel?

heartbreaking

whenever you see someone who's having their mom as their BFF, how does it feel?

i'm green with envy

do you share your private stuff with your mom?

no

have you ever tried?

yes

frankly, how does it feel?

feels like dying?

you do not trust them?

as much as they don't trust me as their daughter

you're pretty secretive aren't you?

life made me this way

what do you think of those who's always have their family's support?

great but it's annoying when they're too full of it

why is that so?

because they think i have the exact same way of life like them

meaning?

they have their family's back is not equal to me not having those things~

example?

- if i'm sad, i'll cry alone

- if they're sad, they'll have their dad/mom to make them feel better

do you have a boyfriend?

no

don't you want one?

not now

what will your parents react if you have one?

my dad would kill me i think?

do you envy those who have their parents trust?

very

do you envy those who got freedom from their parents?

yes

do you think it's hard living with your parents now?

i think it is

why?

it's suffocating in here

are they that bad?

not really

why are always sneak out?

i hardly have green light from them

so you think sneaking out is the best option?

yes

why?

no one's gonna reject my idea

what does people say when you say you can't go out

you're a grown up~ how can you parents not letting you go out?

how does it feel?

they just don't know my parents

do you have a driving licence?

yes I do

do you drive often?

no

why?

i don't have a car

why don't your borrow your dad's car?

he won't allow me to

what would be his answer if you ask him to borrow his car?

BIG NO!

your brother's having his licence soon, do you think your dad won't lend his car to him too?

i don't want to think about it

why?

because i think my dad would give him the car right away

why is that so?

just my instinct

do you think it's fair?

of course not!

how is your self esteem?

i believe it's very low 

why are you doing this?

because i'm pathetic.

p/s : All questions are by me.

© nadiasepet