Salam to all ♥♥
i finally beritahu my parents about my result. yeah, that horrible result of mine. i was so damn afraid back then. cause i know, for God knows how many times i let them down. this time, i did the same damn thing. LETTING BOTH MY DAD AND MOM DOWN :( i'm such an ungrateful daughter. i kept letting them down. UPSR, PMR, SPM, and university. thanks to my own attitude which lead me to this. keep it up nadia and you might end up hurting your beloved parents again and again.
on that result's day, i kept checking the student portal website though from the bottom of my heart, i hate to know my result. cause i know, i know. that will only makes me cry. later in the evening, i asked ezhar bout the result and he said belum keluar lagi. and yeah, i kept checking my fellow uitm's buddies status at yahoo messenger. i was in invisible mode on that time. i didn't wish people to know i was online. i kept chatting nonsense with ezhar like usual. and i saw bobeq's status, "result kuar". he's my classmate btw. so i rushed to student portal. and i couldn't get through.
just then, ezhar asked me, "da check result lom?" i said i can't. then he explained the procedure. i was like, oooooo. hahas. and i teros la check. and yes, i'm doom! the first thing i saw was my first sem's result. i just need to scroll down the mouse. but i kinda hesitate to do it. as i scroll down, gosh. i saw my cgpa first. (@_@) i was startle. cause the pointer's low. if my cg's low, means my gpa's freaking lower than that. OMG. SERIOUSLY, kte tak nak tau pointer kte berapa time tuh. cukupla tengok CGPA. tu pon da meruntun jiwa. huhu.
so yeah, i did tengok the GPA later. numb. speechless. yet i thank Allah cause i still above 3 pointer. tapi 3 pointer yang sangat lemah. cukup2 makan. kemerosotan yang amat mendadak. itu menyebabkan saya begitu takut untuk berhadapan dengan ibubapa saya pada ketika itu. my moon went down. surprisingly, i didn't cry. but saya merasakan hati saya sedang menangis teresak2.
pada ketika itu juga, ezhar mengasak diri ini untuk memberitahu result. sebab dia da bagitau dia punye result. and he's better than mine. so i told him, kte x check lagi. but he kept asking. non stop. wakakakakakakaka. then i felt like crying, then i asked him, "kalo kte nanges ko buat pe?" then he said, "aku buat ni." he sent me korean audibles. lol. and kte gelak je. x jadi nanges.
malam menjelang. classmates ku mula membanjiri yahoo messenger. haha. apa yang saya buat? check dorg punye status. they were all sounded happy. so that kinda scare me. hours later, i changed my status. from invisible to busy with note, "alhamdulillah but don't bother to ask." then zatie and adam buzz me. so i got to know others' results from zatie. and adam gedik nak main sims3 plak. lol
sepanjang malam itu, saya penat berfikir tentang bagaimana hendak memberitahu khabar kurang memberansangkan ini kepada ibubapa saya. bagaimana? how? so i was planning to send them my result via email. thats what i did last time. when i asked for permission to hang out with my friends. kinda pathetic. huhu. so i did. i sent the email at 3 in the morning. and i went to bed. hoping it will be find the next day.
i woke up late. i pushed myself to bangun lambat. hahas. saya duduk menonton television di hall atas. and i heard sounds from my parents' bedroom. eh? they didn't work? take note that this happened on friday. a day after result's day. so i was like, so they still didn't know my result la. cause i sent to their office's emails. mmmmmmmmmmmmm. rupanya my parents cuti sebab ktorg nak balik kampung semalam. hahas. so how on earth saya nak bgtau my parents bout my result?
kami breakfast di mamak si seksyen kami and i met liyana amira there. but i didn't ask for her result. matila kalo my mom dengar. so when my dad pegi bayar kat kaunter, i finally told my mom.
on that result's day, i kept checking the student portal website though from the bottom of my heart, i hate to know my result. cause i know, i know. that will only makes me cry. later in the evening, i asked ezhar bout the result and he said belum keluar lagi. and yeah, i kept checking my fellow uitm's buddies status at yahoo messenger. i was in invisible mode on that time. i didn't wish people to know i was online. i kept chatting nonsense with ezhar like usual. and i saw bobeq's status, "result kuar". he's my classmate btw. so i rushed to student portal. and i couldn't get through.
just then, ezhar asked me, "da check result lom?" i said i can't. then he explained the procedure. i was like, oooooo. hahas. and i teros la check. and yes, i'm doom! the first thing i saw was my first sem's result. i just need to scroll down the mouse. but i kinda hesitate to do it. as i scroll down, gosh. i saw my cgpa first. (@_@) i was startle. cause the pointer's low. if my cg's low, means my gpa's freaking lower than that. OMG. SERIOUSLY, kte tak nak tau pointer kte berapa time tuh. cukupla tengok CGPA. tu pon da meruntun jiwa. huhu.
so yeah, i did tengok the GPA later. numb. speechless. yet i thank Allah cause i still above 3 pointer. tapi 3 pointer yang sangat lemah. cukup2 makan. kemerosotan yang amat mendadak. itu menyebabkan saya begitu takut untuk berhadapan dengan ibubapa saya pada ketika itu. my moon went down. surprisingly, i didn't cry. but saya merasakan hati saya sedang menangis teresak2.
pada ketika itu juga, ezhar mengasak diri ini untuk memberitahu result. sebab dia da bagitau dia punye result. and he's better than mine. so i told him, kte x check lagi. but he kept asking. non stop. wakakakakakakaka. then i felt like crying, then i asked him, "kalo kte nanges ko buat pe?" then he said, "aku buat ni." he sent me korean audibles. lol. and kte gelak je. x jadi nanges.
malam menjelang. classmates ku mula membanjiri yahoo messenger. haha. apa yang saya buat? check dorg punye status. they were all sounded happy. so that kinda scare me. hours later, i changed my status. from invisible to busy with note, "alhamdulillah but don't bother to ask." then zatie and adam buzz me. so i got to know others' results from zatie. and adam gedik nak main sims3 plak. lol
sepanjang malam itu, saya penat berfikir tentang bagaimana hendak memberitahu khabar kurang memberansangkan ini kepada ibubapa saya. bagaimana? how? so i was planning to send them my result via email. thats what i did last time. when i asked for permission to hang out with my friends. kinda pathetic. huhu. so i did. i sent the email at 3 in the morning. and i went to bed. hoping it will be find the next day.
i woke up late. i pushed myself to bangun lambat. hahas. saya duduk menonton television di hall atas. and i heard sounds from my parents' bedroom. eh? they didn't work? take note that this happened on friday. a day after result's day. so i was like, so they still didn't know my result la. cause i sent to their office's emails. mmmmmmmmmmmmm. rupanya my parents cuti sebab ktorg nak balik kampung semalam. hahas. so how on earth saya nak bgtau my parents bout my result?
kami breakfast di mamak si seksyen kami and i met liyana amira there. but i didn't ask for her result. matila kalo my mom dengar. so when my dad pegi bayar kat kaunter, i finally told my mom.
me : ma, kte ingat mama keje arini. so kte anta result kte gne email.
mama : result da kuar?
me : mmmmmm
mama : eeee.. kakak... dapat brp? *muka mama sangat ceria and anxious to know the result*
me : terokla.
mama : brp? dkn x?
me : x. terok. *menggeleng-geleng kepala*
mama : bwh 3 ke? (@_____@)
me : NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. lps 3 la. tp terok.
then ayah da abes bayar. ktorg cam automatically the conversation stop. haha. semua org including my bro tak nak my dad tau. not yet. huhu. cause we all know, he'll start the annoying nag. and semua org tak suka. then, ktorg stop kat petrol pump. as my dad's outside, my mom asked me bout my result again.
mama : so subject ape yg 4 flat?
me : maths ngan KOKO.
mama : yang lain?
me : java programming, A-. the rest mama check la email mama nanti.
mama : ala.. bgtau jela.
me : ma checkla sendiri nnt.
so di pertengahan jalan menuju ke kampung, suddenly my dad asked me.
ayah : kak, bile result kuar?
me : ....................
ayah : bile?
me : ....................
mama : da kuar da..
ayah : huhhhh?? da kuar? bile?
mama : ntah. smlm kot..
ayah : so how was it?
me : maths, koko ngan programming dapat A. *bagitau yg A je.*
ayah : agama? english?
me : ......................
the conversation berterusan. and my dad said, "yes, selamat duit ayah." hahahahas. for this semester, i requested him a big present if i manage to get deans. but heck, i failed. nak tau ape kte mintak? haha. awal tahun dulu, fina asked me, "diaz, jom gi Korea." and yeah, i was extremely excited bout that. going to Korea again and i never had a trip with friend. so i asked my dad to sponsor the trip and after several non-stop pushing from me. ayah saya setuju dengan syarat, dapat dekan. sadly, i failed. i failed!!! grrr.
pada waktu malam di kampung sambil menonton The Pacifier, my dad datang kat saya. "kak, nak tgk result." my parents still tak tau my pointer and actual result. so i showed him. he just said, "sem ni da lps. next time do better. try dpt dekan. CGPA try make it above 3.5. bla bla bla" saya hanya mampu mengangguk kepala. at least, he didn't nag. my mom too. I LOVE THEM BOTH FOR NOT NAGGING. teehee.
but still saya bersyukur sebab masih above 3 pointer. namun terkilan kerana english terok. sangat terok. sangat frust!
pada waktu malam di kampung sambil menonton The Pacifier, my dad datang kat saya. "kak, nak tgk result." my parents still tak tau my pointer and actual result. so i showed him. he just said, "sem ni da lps. next time do better. try dpt dekan. CGPA try make it above 3.5. bla bla bla" saya hanya mampu mengangguk kepala. at least, he didn't nag. my mom too. I LOVE THEM BOTH FOR NOT NAGGING. teehee.
but still saya bersyukur sebab masih above 3 pointer. namun terkilan kerana english terok. sangat terok. sangat frust!
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