thank you 2012.

السلام عليكم & 안영 to all ♥♥

2012 had been great. too great i must say. should i go through the year? this post might be super long.. or it might be not. it depends on my mood, i guess? i feel like i have so much to tell yet i feel like there is nothing much to tell. LOLS what am i saying?

as i look back at my resolutions of 2012, oh wait.. do i have one? 

I want to be a good Muslimah; an obedient daughter to my parents, a good sister to my brother, a great friend to my friends, an excellent student, and a good citizen to the community and country.

well, i'm not sure if i manage to do those stuff. i think it would be the same resolutions for this year. i doubt i'm being a great friend. well, i think i'm not. i think there are few minor conflicts here and there. and i don't really wanna talk about it. i just want YOU to know, that even if i'm mad at you.. deep down inside, you're still my friend and i love you for that. excellent student? sigh but i did try my best. it just that.. it isn't enough... to the parents, i don't know how many times i will say this to you guys, i'm sorry for the things i've done and i love you both. and Naqib, though you're an ass most of the time, i do love you. i'm sorry that i never say it out loud, it is just not me.

academically, i'm blessed for having Dr Syed as my supervisor. i love how perfectionist he is. that's how he taught me to be more organized on doing my report. even during my internship, i wish him to check on my report. kepada rakan2 kelas yang berganding bahu ketika FYP, saya sangat sangat menghargai jasa baik anda semua. i won't forget. 

the last two semesters were tiring. i'd be lying if i say it's not. 

i thought my life is quite chaotic during FYP proposal. but it's so much worst during the development. it's all about deadlines. and yeah, i failed to meet the deadlines. i had no mock presentation during FYP proposal, sebab schedule dipercepatkan. can you imagine how i felt? macam guruh kilat sabung menyabung tanpa henti, ketakutan. i didn't know what to expect. i couldn't think of any questions the examiners might ask. it was scary. i was so scared that i even met my SV before my presentation. he calmed me. it felt good after meeting him. at least, i gained confidence to face the examiners. 

how should i feel when i was the only one who received the most critics in the presentation room? among six students, i got the most comments. one of the examiner was not pleased with my presentation. to be honest, i felt nothing. but i asked myself, why? later on, when i heard everyone's okay with their presentation i became restless. what if i failed? would the examiner fail me? i told everything to my SV. again, he calmed me. and i'm very grateful for that. 

FYP proposal was over. but not development. i tried not to think about development as i had a trip to go. and yeah, i didn't think about the development during the semester break. which was quite stupid. is it? let me talk about the trip first. so how was it? it was my first trip with friends. and it's a trip abroad. i never thought i will get my parents' permission at the very first place. i was quite shocked when ayah was okay about it. seriously, he didn't even let me when i wanted to go to Genting Highlands with my girlfriends. so i was like, for real? so yeah, i went to Seoul with my friends who love Korea. i repeat, Korea. 

since i've been to Seoul before, i didn't really care about visiting the places anymore. i mean during that time, i just think about Kpop. the Kpop experience there. i thought, it would be fun? and yes it was. but it needed a LOT of patience. and you need luck to be with you, ALL THE TIME. in my case, i was not really lucky. but i still managed to watch some Kpop acts. 

i think i'll just share the video blogs i made there?

Day One >> Day Two >> Noraebang Session

i did blog about my first and second day. please check on my right column. thank you XD

a day after i came home from Seoul, the result was out. i freaked out. i was scared that it might be worst than the last semester. i was really really scared. and to my surprise, it was the best semester ever! Alhamdulillah. i was really really grateful. i just don't want to dissapoint my parents again and again. okay the FYP development was a complete nightmare i must say. with my lack of programming skills, it was very hard. tipulah kalau tak menangis. tipu sangat. student life, tak tidur itu normal, but not for me. i need to sleep no matter what! i'm not someone who stayed up to study. i'm a morning person. so i prefer to wake up early in the morning. for me, sleep is very important.

when i was in Seoul, i saw most of the people are using smartphones. well it's not something new i guess. since they own Samsung. LOLS. well, to be honest, i fall in love with Galaxy Note at the very first sight of it there. i was like, Oh My God. I MUST HAVE THAT THING! so a month after, i bought myself one ^^ oh i'm still in debt with ayah. i paid half only. ayah cakap, "takde duit nak beli" sigh. HAHAHAHAHA

in the midst of chaotic life of mine, there was a big fuzz about SNSD was coming to town. i was like, really? who could've thought they were really coming! and guess what, i went to see them. LOLS can you believe it? do believe it :P yeah as much as i do not like them in person i still like their songs

but during FYP development, i couldn't sleep much. especially apabila deadline semakin menghampiri. you couldn't afford to sleep. how could you sleep? projek anda tidak siap lagi? kalau projek tak siap, macam mana nak buat report, kawan2? it was beyond crazy. procrastination. that was my big problem, to begin with. i asked myself, why did i pick this project? why? why?

so let's move on, shall we? as i was busy with FYP development, i need to find myself a place for my internship. i called some places. i sent them my resumes. surprisingly, half of them responded. and in the end, i chose JAIS. 

okay this is something i never tell in public. LOLS it was suppose to be a top secret but since i wanna blog about it so i guess it's not any longer. hehehe. well, i think i was crazy? yeah i think i was. as what i've done on January, when i went to Bang&Zelo fan meeting in Sg Wang during exam week, i did the same during this semester. oh gosh, mama ayah if you read this, sorry don't kill me. it's all in the past :P so what happened was, i stalked. hurm not stalking. i would rather i say i joined BAP in Sunway Lagoon when they came here. omg i feel so scared saying this in my blog. LOLS. it was very special. there were so many precious moments happened! i even smiled as i typed this out. 

ever since my girlfriends and i finished our high school, we wanted to go on a trip, together. after years, finally we went on a trip. like finally. but it was just the four of us, sadly. i wish, all of them were there. despite all the problems we had before, i wish they were all there. to share the excitements. the happiness. together. sometimes i feel that it's hard to gather all of them in one place. when was the last time we were all together? i cannot remember. i just can't.

October 2012 was the best October in my 22 years of life. 

indeed it was. it started with the Korean Festival in Sunway Pyramid. it was not on plan. i was there because i thought Wonder Girls might come. but they didn't. lucky us, we met someone who looked like Changmin. Changmin from DongBangShinKi or in short DBSK. i rather call them Homin now >.< you can check my post about it. more details :P and on the same day, i got a new baby! it's like my birthday present in advance from myself? LOLS

Singapore was fun. so much fun! USS was great! everything was great. from the airport, the MRT, the people. everything. and the event at the airport. i will never forget! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! too bad we were there for only 2 days. i wish it to be longer. i wanna go there, again. it was not enough. i wanna go to the USS again. i wanna go up to MBS's deck. i wanna see the whole Singapore. i will come back. i will come back.

BIGBANG came. they're finally here. as five. that night was among the best night ever. i won't forget it. okay tipu. i did forget some of it. sejujurnya, i only remember the last half of the concert. but i won' forget the moment Ji came to my side. it was so precious. thank you baby. my birthday celebration was very simple. i don't think i had a cake during my birthday? i don't think so. i don't feel like it on that moment. those events made my October super special this year. 

for the rest of 2012, nothing much happened. well apart from the cancellation of 2NE1's concert, i think nothing else happened. it was quite sad that i never had a chance to watch the girls live. it's freaking in Stadium Melawati. so damn close. but what could i do. i wish to see them but some part of me wish they'll never come.

i guess that would be it. i've been holding this post for the longest time in my draft. it's been in my draft since last year. i think there might be some events that i forget to mention here, but these are all i could remember for now. thank you for everyone who made my 2012 special. thank you very much. let's make 2013 even better! XD