Detoxing myself from the social media.

السلام عليكم & 안영 to all ♥♥

Been writing this for days so I really hope it turns out like how I want it to be.

Okay. So I think I should blog about this. I am not sure how to categorize this post but I would say it's kinda personal cause it's like a 'social' experiment towards myself. Alright so early this year, specifically on late March we went to Langkawi; me, Asya and Zureen cause we really need a short weekend getaway during that time. Lol I supposed to blog about that Langkawi trip as well but you know, I am just lazy. We had our special tour guide there who is now an island boy, Ezhar.

So it started when we did the catching up thing with Ezhar, well he's in touch with Asya but not with me and Zureen. Well, we're not that close, not like when we're in school? So yeah, so Ezhar just shut himself off the social media; his Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat and last but not least Twitter. And he's thinking to remove Whatsapp as well. This dude is weird, that's what I first thought. He's still active on Youtube but we could not count Youtube as social media right? Cause it's not.

I could not help but to ask why would he do that? To be honest, at this very moment, like months after our talk I've forgotten the details. But what I could remember is that so much negativity in the social media being the cause. People are competing with one another to become famous. Especially kids these days are like thinking that being famous and known are very very important thing to achieve in their whole life. They are not like us back then. They are different. And we get it, we're living in a different era and it's tough being them. Other than that, you should know better on how attached people these days with their phones, well their social media to be exact.

These days where ever you go, people seem to be very into their world, their social media world. If you're lepaking with your friends, what would you do? You would at least check on your phone, I know to avoid the awkwardness or whatever. I know, myself included. But hey, why don't you try to make more conversations. I mean, try to stay away from your phone. Well, I tried. I know it's hard. I even apologize whenever I had to use my phone. You need that quality time with your friends more than talking to them via tweeting, facebooking or whatsapping while you're together? Doesn't make sense right?

What hit me was, the realization by Ezhar that after he quitted social media, you would realize how important you are to people. Do people actually check into you once you're gone? Or do people even realize that you're now not in the social media any longer? That's when you know, who your real friends are. How important you are to your friends? It hurts, really. Don't you hate it how people actually depend so much on the social media updates rather than actually keeping in touch with them? It's annoying. I mean, you saw their updates on their social media accounts and you would think it's enough. But do you really think it's enough?

What's more? Since we (Read: Me, Asya, Zureen & Ezhar) are more towards twitter, liberalism is starting to conquer the timeline? I'm not sure with another platform though. I mean, this is a very sensitive topic and I could be bias. I mean you read stuff but you think you could deal with it but sometimes it got very very nasty. I mean, if it would kacau your iman, it's better to avoid right? Cause things like this, it would affect your iman eventually. I know you would say, how nipis/rendah your iman to be distracted by this? But hey, if you keep on reading stuff and you start to doubt about your faith... that is no good people. We might screw up our faith. This is one of the negativity I've mentioned earlier.

We agreed as during that time (Read: late March 2018), Twitter was not really messed up, yet. Going to be worst, though. I mean things were still under control? People were fighting for that freedom of speech? Yeah, it's good but there are pro's and con's as usual. I don't feel like talking about this matter though. You think about it yourself, okay.

So how was he when he first quitted? He said he felt as if he committed suicide, his online self. Well, this was coming from someone who was heavily attached to his social media life. So it's tough. He started to read Quran again and he kinda gave few tazkirah. Seriously, he is turning into someone new. And it's good. He gave out some thoughts as well and it had me to think really deep on our our lives. Do we really take our lives for granted? Do we really pay attention to our afterlife?

But commit suicide? I really don't get it then. Like really? Was it really that bad? I got curious, damn curious. Dude, we're living in the social media era. We could not live without it. It's true, though. The old me would scroll all my social media accounts, endlessly. I'll start with the boring one, the Facebook, followed by Instagram and lastly my Twitter. I don't do Snapchat. Well, I just went there for the filters though.

Let me emphasize how social media affects my day routine back then. For Facebook, it's like my contact book where it had my families, schoolmates, college mates and colleagues's daily lives updates. Oh and the wedding invitations. At times, I linked my Instagram post to my Facebook. Since my Facebook friends, most of them do not have Instagram. And I am not a person who post things on Facebook. I shared articles though.

Instagram. Where should I start? I am clearly not an insta famous or what not. I consider my account as my personal album. But only my happy moments shared, obviously. Who in the world shared the sad moments there? But the sad part with Instagram you tend to compare your life with someone else's cause their life seems to be perfect. But don't. Really don't. 

Last but not least, Twitter. Oh I super duper loved Twitter. You can tell I am so much a Twitter person. My Twitter is pretty private. It's where I got my latest news, jokes, memes, and where I vent myself out. I mean, you could totally rant about almost anything and nobody gives a damn about it! At times, it felt like my daily diary. Pretty much why I ditched my blog, cause it felt like I told everything off on Twitter. So there's not so much to blog anymore. Sad.

Everything on Twitter is fast, and I liked it. Though you can't really trust anything people post there but well it's way better than Facebook. Comments on Facebook are way much nastier than on Twitter, well back then. I am not sure how it is now. Oh I forgot to tell, when Ezhar first told this story to us, newly to me and Zureen, I right away de-activated my Facebook. Like that instance. So peeps, if you're looking for me on Facebook, sorry I am no longer there. Sorry I might miss anyone's wedding invitations as well.

Why I deactivated Facebook first? Well, cause it's Facebook? Lol. No need to even think? I have nothing attached to it. Up until now, I don't regret it. Not a bit. Am I easily influenced? No, certainly not. I have already thinking to leave my social media back then but I think it would be impossible. Like how would I do that? And why would I do that? Though I always have this idea to disappear? Like vanish?

So which platform to shut off next was kinda tricky for me. I couldn't choose; I loved Twitter so much that I think I could not live without it. I mean c'mon, it's my freaking source of everything. And so much dramas happened there, you know. Twitter was like a source of entertainment, in a way. So I thought I would shut off my Instagram first. But instead, I chose to leave Twitter first. Cause I think I was way addicted to it. So much. So I need to stop. It's contagious.

I am such a coward, I did not deactivate my Twitter account cause I'm afraid I might regret it someday. So I just uninstall the app in my phone. So how was it? I gotta say the first three days was okay? It was pretty a big deal for me. But thank goodness that I was kinda busy that moment so it did not really bother me. I didn't feel lost or anything. But I do feel empty. I mean, I complaint A LOT! So Twitter had been my ranting medium so I had no idea where should I let it out. So the early days of leaving Twitter had me texted my girlfriends either on iMessage or Whatsapp to rant about stuff. LOL. The bright side of leaving Twitter is I tend to calm myself first rather than just sembur all I wanted online. Seriously I am getting more calm these days. And I am not easily mad as before. I still do, mind you but yeah not as bad as before. It's good. Really. You don't really want to mess with my old self before. Seriously.

I don't realize about it until I don't know. Lol but I loved it. Who like to be mad all the time? I mean my emotional is not that stable. I tend to be so grumpy but I am not any longer. And by not being active on Twitter, I am no longer seeing any stupid stuff/dramas there. Oh oh another big thing is, I got to escape SPOILERS! You know I super duper hate spoilers. No spoilers about those new Marvel/DC's movies, GoTs, any korean dramas I am currently watching; ANY KIND OF SPOILERS. I am totally freeeeeee from it.

Now I'm becoming a normal person who does not own any social media, I mean I have no idea what's up with our current world. Don't even ask me on what's happening or what are the viral stuff these days. I really have zero idea about it. No kidding. Whenever people talk about the viral stuff, I'd go krik krik krik and they had explain to me. I don't think I am missing anything. It's good for now. I still have my brother and friends to update me on that lol.

Oh if you're wondering, yes I am keeping my Instagram. And I am happy with it at the moment. I gotta admit that I get bored sometimes but I just have to deal with it, slowly. And I actually manage not to have the other two accounts. I did cheat for Twitter, I mean I logged into it sometimes but I don't have that feeling to re-join.

So now I'm pretty much Netflix and chill. LOL. Well I am not fully detoxing myself but I'm getting there? It just that now I am more sensitive to my surroundings more than before. This is only my personal side story of trying to detox myself from the social medias. I don't feel like I lost myself but I did feel alone, empty for leaving my social media. But I am loving how I am feeling now, it's totally better than before. Especially the grumpy part. Maybe later, I might shut down my Instagram as well. It is just a matter of time :)

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