Happy Birthday Nadia :)

السلام عليكم & 안영 to all ♥♥

this is a KPOP post. i've warned you. so if you feel like reading, just read. i'm not responsible if you think it's annoying, childish, delusional or whatever comes into your mind. again, i've warned that this is a KPOP post. if you hate anything related to KPOP, just don't read this.

okay let's start. i'm pretty sure whoever known me in KPOP world knows about my wish to stop involving myself in the KPOP world. it's a fact that i'm slowing down right. and yeah, i succeed! i manage not to bother about what's happening in the KPOP world. in fact, my love towards Beast is near to zero level right now. no more love for Beast, no more love for Junhyung.  no more.

i tried to limit myself to focus on some korean artists. most importantly YGfamily. they are forever be in my heart. the extra are just Wonder Girls, Beast, Block B and BAP. to be honest, i don't really follow them as much as i did last time. back then, i was so eager to know what happened to them daily. but not anymore. i guess, i've grown up. i don't really care these days.

so the highlight of this post is BAP. i followed them even before they debuted. thanks to Bang&Zelo. when i was in Seoul last February, i nearly became their sasaeng fans with Zureen. we tried to go anywhere they go. it went crazy. they came here for a showcase, we went to the Sunway Lagoon to catch them. it was beyond crazy. but if you're in the KPOP world, that is nothing.

being a fangirl, it's tiring. it's not a simple job.

TRUE.

once they released their previous single, Crash. my love towards them decreased slowly. i cherish all the memorable moments with them. from Seoul to KL. everything. but i'm not into Crash. i don't like that kind of genre. for me it's boring. slowly, i care nothing about them. 

up until... the news about their comeback came out. well, i was okay until i read about when would be their comeback date. it's today. 23 October 2012. my birthday. my 22th birthday. oh my freaking gosh! i couldn't believe it. how could they do this to me? and their album entitled, "하지마" which means Stop It. on that moment, it felt like, omg why? why it has to be "하지마"? it felt like they don't wanna me to stop loving them. it's like they want me to keep loving them. they want me to stop whatever i plan. yes, i did want to stop crazy about them. what's worst, the tracks for the mini album released. one of the track named as, "Happy Birthday"

WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS?!

LIKE SERIOUSLY?

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

THIS IS NOT FUNNY OKAY.

i really want to stop. i really do. i want to leave my fangirling world. it's my dark world. i want to be a normal girl. it's tiring. i've waited for today to come, patiently. Babys (BAP's fans name) started to spazz about the mini album. they spazzed about the songs. and everyone's been talking about Happy Birthday. O M G. STAPH!

thanks to Zureen for the download link, i've downloaded the album. i listened to the songs; one by one. Happy Birthday is the last track in the album. as i was listened to 하지마, TSE released the Music Video for 하지마. just nice. BAM just like that. i couldn't breathe. one by one please. the MV is too cute. there's too much of Daehyun. i just couldn't stand his smiles. i'm melting. oh boy, stop torturing nuna. spazzed about the MV. Zureen made a special gift for me. thank you very much!

riang sungguh Daehyun buat heart shape for me :P

i calmed myself after watching the MV, getting ready to listen "Happy Birthday". O M G.  i don't know why i got emotional that i wanted to cry. the sweet melody of the song and the great voices of them touched my heart. yeah i'm being delusional that they're dedicating their whole comeback for me. yeah special for me.

Listen babe,
I’ll dedicate this song for you.
A really happy you, who is next to me
I waited for today, your birthday

Your smile that looks at me oh
It’s really, really bright
I want to pick those stars for you

Happy birthday to you
My beautiful love
Baby, only for you
Because you’re here, I’m happy
Happy birthday to you
Just like today, forever
Baby, only for you
We’re going to be together

From when I open my eyes till I close them,
I only think of you for the whole day
It’s lonely, a night without you
You, who is like the sunshine that shines through the window
You wake me up and make me smile, you’re special, a bit different

You, who is more important than anything else in the world
Will you accept my heart that I prepared for you

Your smile that looks at me oh
It’s really, really bright
I want to pick those stars for you

Happy birthday to you
My beautiful love
Baby, only for you
Because you’re here, I’m happy
Happy birthday to you
Just like today, forever
Baby, only for you
We’re going to be together

Lovey-dovey, sometimes we argue
I think all night about what I should do to the sulking you
Do you know how my heart tightens
because you might hate me?
To me, there’s no one else but you. You’re the only one that makes me smile

I can see that you’re different even among a group of many people
Your shining eyes, lips
My heart feels at peace when you’re next to me

I thank God for bringing the beautiful you down here
Please stay like this forever, inside me
I will kiss you baby
Happy birthday

Happy birthday to you
My beautiful love
Baby, only for you
Because you’re here, I’m happy
Happy birthday to you
Just like today, forever
Baby, only for you
We’re going to be together

yanaliyana tweeted me the english translation for "Happy Birthday". how can i stay calm after reading the translation? it's too sweet, i'm speechless. i know i need to stop being delusional, but since today is my day it's up to me. please do not spoil my day.

anyway, thank you BAP. thanks for your comeback. thanks for the songs. thanks for everything. i won't stop. deep down inside, i really want you to come to Malaysia again, but there's part of me who wish you won't come. but thanks for making my 22th birthday more awesome and meaningful than usual. thankyouverymuch. 사랑한다! ♥

HAPPY 22TH BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

courtesy: Oumae22 & KpopLyrics