How are you guys doing?
Or should I ask myself, How am I doing right now?
Anyways, Happy 2021!
Today is February 18th. We are still in the state of MCO.
As I am residing in Selangor, this lovely MCO is extended until March 4th. How interesting.
How am I cooperating with this?
This whole MCO makes me reflect the life I've been living for the past few years.
Why is it suffocating, I know it's just not me; it's everyone.
But what's more for me? I realized that I am not a home person,
regardless considering myself as an introvert.
What I meant is, ever since i started working I always working till late.
Like sadistic life I had before, keluar gelap balik gelap.
Not until I switched to the current job, keluar cerah balik cerah.
But cos I would go lepak, so I'll reach home dah gelap.
But as I grew older, I did love spend my weekend at home.
My old body is just tired to go out during weekend.
MCO 1.0, I got so paranoid. I was so afraid to go out.
There was one incident at the office, our intern was in contact with a positive person.
Cause it was something new, everyone was scared including me.
I was crying myself out not wanting to go home as if I am infected.
My colleagues were shocked to see me crying cause they always thought I am heartless. LOL
But I couldn't stop crying. From then, I think I just stayed home and I was fine with it.
I remembered the first time I got to do grocery shopping instead of ayah. I was the happiest.
Too happy to see outside world.
Yet, I got to say I was the happiest when I was driving to the office for the first time after so long.
The traffic was super damn fine. Even though I could see no one at the office, I was so happy.
It felt like I could finally breathe again. I missed this, I thought to myself.
I got to say, any further incidents afterwards it didn't really bother me.
I mean not emotionally bothered me. I could think straight and chill myself out.
We went from MCO to CMCO to RMCO.
Now we're back to MCO, yet again.
Of course, everyone is asking everyone else, when would this end?
Do you think the vaccine is the right answer though?
I wish we have the answer guys.
Writing this, I didn't blog anything about my 30th birthday.
Sigh. It was on the sudden CMCO. I was so heartbroken.
I think my post here is kinda selfish but I am writing what was I feeling.
Maybe I was mad enough that my Bali trip with the girlfriends had to be cancelled.
We were supposed to celebrate our 30th together. LOL party hard.
Padahal in denial nak masuk 30.
So when my birthday trip to PD had to be cancelled due to CMCO, I really couldn't take it.
But I love everyone who made my quarantine birthday bermakna. You guys are the sweetest!
At least I was not sad on my birthday.
Oh we finally had our short staycation to cover our Bali trip in KL.
Literally spent extra for that insane view of KLCC.
Funny how the girlfriends tak tarik the blinds sebab taknak membazir paying for the view.
SIS DAH LAH TAK BOLEH TIDUR KALAU TAK GELAP. I was struggling to sleep actually.
And now I am looking forward for more staycations. Tak kisah lah dalam Selangor/KL je.
Wow I can't believe I am turning 31 this year.
So are you seeing someone? LOL
I wish I can finally say yes to this, but nope.
In fact not talking to anyone as I am writing this.
How am I feeling right now? The truth; koyak.
I'm currently off from Tinder. Why?
I think I had enough? I don't feel like going into that talking stage again. Bosan.
I forgot whether I off my radar there or not?
Cause I only uninstall the apps not deleted my account.
My super close friends suggested me to find the One 'organically' instead of in dating apps.
To organically find the One in this pandemic era?
And me someone who just too shy to look at someone's eye?
How can I buat eye contact or even flirt in public places?
I laughed so hard at their suggestion.
Can I just wish something magical would happen this year?
Cause sis dah kembali ke mode malas.
But I really love the idea of getting married during MCO.
Cause I can get the small intimate wedding that I always wanted.
Because of MCO 2.0, I joined TikTok. Surprisingly I learnt ALOT there! LOL
Two days ago, I received an invitation into Clubhouse.
So yeah, I am now in Clubhouse as well. Not in the mood to explore yet but I kinda like the concept.
I feel like re-doing my Social Media detox again but I don't think I can survive during this crucial time.
Oh I just found out about that Sugarb*0k thinggy since it went viral.
Funny how I recently had this conversation about this SD/SB with someone.
So I was like, oh selama ni ada dedicated platform? I am such a noob.
I hope MCO will only be extended until March 4th. Please no more.
Thank you.
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